Tryin to be back

Haaallllooooooooo

Well, whoever have read my blog until now, thanks to them, you are always an inspiration to make me write

It’s been a while since I wrote anything.

I knew I was going to do it sometime this month. I have my reasons. Let me list some of them

One, no mood to write, my life been soo pale as the face of Johnny depp in Edward Scissorhands. So, I was jus sittin home all the time, doing nothing but searching for jobs.

Second, hundreds of other reasons going through my mind. What am I going to become, in life, is the biggest question, its not like am worried and all that, but I believe at least now I should choose a route, well, I believe lot of people go through this phase and compromise on leading a un-risky life, like getting a job in a bank or a software company.

I don’t know how many people think in that way these days, but, I do not want to be one of them, making it ‘+’vely correct, I would say, I want to risk and get more success than staying down and compromise with life.

But again the question is, what do I wanna be, I donnnoooo….. making questions is the easiest thing in life, how about being a professor or a lecturer, my job just would be making questions and I can bluff that I know everything better than students.

So, here I am in front of my love, my apple, whose battery is dying early these days, need to buy a new life for her, well, my life itself is in a way which needs more power than a battery, writing sh*t again, am I

Well, doesn’t matter, no one is going to publish this or anything rt… chalega ( meaning doesn’t matter in hindi )….

Listenin to : ' Raindrops keep fallin on my head ' by Burt Bacharach/BJ Thomas ( it never gets old)

Whatever

I cant close my mouth!!!!

When something is wrong, i just cant take it, it may be a problem, a situation, someone's behavior.

Well, if you are friends with someone, you do think of whatever happens to them should be good. You try to change them if they are into something bad, may be habits or affairs.

I tried changing a few people the way they behave, well, they started to get annoyed, and some stopped talking to me too! may be i am at fault sometimes. I wonder if the problem is with them or me. I try to do some good, explain people what the situation is, but, accepting the truth is the hard part, for anyone, so the conversation end up in a conflict, people don't like me for that. Well at least, something good is going to happen to them, I hope, even if they do not care. People take quite some time to realize what went wrong, they are no machines, I say.

Well, if I am the one to realize, I can say I was wrong and get on with things, but the question is do everyone have the courage ( well, that would be a big word, but I couldn't find anything else) to get back to things the way they were. An apology sometimes does work ( oh i like apologies heheheh, the bloody side yeah! ), that too if it is a girl, they work out in a big way.

I am not much of a leader, no body listens to me much, that is why i Blog :), I should start reading those Leadership books, maybe that would help to make people listen to me. The last one i started gave me a good night's sleep, in the morning I thought, may be that sleep is supposed to change everything, but that didn't change anything too... heheheh.... blah blah blah right!!!!!!! Need to write something more meaningful and purposeful at least the next time I write, this is what i think of, when i stop to write every time.

Listening to : Silence around me!

Reading Today : The Inheritance of Loss by Kiran Desai.

Some more thoughts!

Satisfaction

Dad always says : never keep something Pending

I am gonna say that to my kids too, keeping something in pending, any work, anything it may be will lead to tensions in last minute.

Need to thank dad for whatever he has done to me, without him I am not at all what I am today. Well, nothin achieved great yet, but yes, i am happy the way i am, as in, so many people are not at all happy with their lives, well me too - just a bit, but on the other hand I am pretty much happy of my life, which I can say is a better success.

Peace

Listenin to: My 28 day-old niece

Blah Blah Again

Be a Smart Worker. someone told me once.

There is a difference between a hard and smart worker, they told me. You work hard, you are a hard worker, you make someone else do your work, you are a smart worker.

I believe I am a hard worker, I like doing my work, I cant leave my work in someone else's hands, how much I may believe in the other person,it doesnt work with me that way, leaving it to someone else and over look if it is getting done or not.

It is the time of smart workers i should say,looking at what is happening now. There is a team, maybe in a company or politics or anything else, part of them work and everyone gets the appreciation ( and money and everything else ), you cannot blame anyone, both hard and smart, hard thinks of doing the work and smart thinks of getting the work done.

Someone else once told me, " if you have been robbed, you have nothing to do with it, but if you have been cheated, you are the one at fault". You let someone cheat you, takeover you, you believed in someone who you shouldnt have, it is you who are responsible, not the one who cheated.

Well, the world works its way, good people come and go, its the bad you always need to deal with.

Listening to : The sound of the Mid-East air & 2-day old Leaves on a dull-summer afternoon

Random Thoughts - 2

I Love my Life

I Love my Life

Whoever out there who doesnt love their life, believe me, start loving it and you will feel really better!!! I knowwwwwww , complains, complains complains and more complains,

" I dont get a bus, my boss hates me, why do these people bother more about me, y cant i quit on mondays, i like to sleep 5 more minutes,i dont like to work at this place, Noooo - I dont wanna go to the class today, I think she is going to break up with me, whateverrrrrrrrr "

Whatever it may be ppl, believe me, start loving your life and you would really see the difference, feel good for what you have, there are lottttttttttttttttttttttttttttta ppl out there who dont have anything at all what you have, not even the least of what you have, it may be friends, love, money, home, whatever it may be, you are reading this because you have something better than many ppl out there.


Listening to : My Laundry machine sounding like a Hulk

Tuesday Nite

Tuesday nite, no Internet at home.

Technology has not only developed, its like a drug now, which we can’t live without.

Think of it, how long can you stay without Web, Phone and any other gadget, maybe an I-Pod. Is technology taking over our livin style?, I cant answer it, I am a big time addict too!

Its like goin through “ hell “ sometimes, trying to flirt with someone, and when she is going to say yes for a date, the connection goes downnnn….. ahhhhh… that’s when I keep cursing everyone from the tech-world possible.

The weather was awesome though, drizzling, very low, it was like walking in the fog. Someone once told me “ if you have the taste to savor the moment you are in “ life is going to be like a wonderland everyday.

Well, when are we going to be so intellectual to say something like that.

Sunday, April 12, 2009

Are Blogs supposed to be thoughts or truth or just anything which comes into mind.

I was watching The Aviator for the nth time ( I don’t remember the exact number, but can say its been lotttttaa times ), one of my favourite movies, Kudos once again to Martin Scorsese , mannn how does he even get the ideas of the movies he makes. Wonderful, most of his films are.

I would love to be re-born as Howard Hughes, if by anyway possible.

Merry!!!

Listening to : I Can't Help Myself by Four Tops

Random Thoughts

Education is not always about gaining a job, its about realizing yourself, regaining yourself, getting to know the world better, lots of things at once, and a lot more. People these days jus bluntly follow the books, give their exams, and go for a job, that’s it. If you ask me, there is lot more than that to life, its not always about getting a job and working your way up, its not just about paying the bills and getting things done on time. Look around you people, there is a lot going on in the world, sometimes do think of the world around you, try to make it a better place to live-in.

Reading : An Arbor by Linda Gregerson

Listening to : Dil ka Rishta ( Yuvvraaj )by A.R.Rahman

Consequences and Friends

Friends, have lots o’ them.

Life would be really really different without friends around ya’. All my life, I believe I have had good friends. Who r good friends?? Girls around me used to rate friends as Bestestt, Best, Good, and jus friends. I could never figure out what tht was…… ?

At times people were around me for my money or ‘gaadi’ , things like tht, I never thought someone would do tht, but realized when one of them sold my books to have a beer, I don’t blame them, sometimes life goes tht way. When u suppose them to be ur friends, I would say complaining is a bad thought.

Misunderstandin is one big thing I do not like in any stance. Well, explanation would be letting myself out and dragging out the things which, in me, would have gone into the back of my mind ( blah blah blah ).

One small misunderstandin would create many problems which you would have never thought come into your life, believe me, I have been through this. I used to think I am the kinda person who can understand anything in any circumstances. When ppl have misunderstood me, lots of times ( the one time when this girl in my college thought I was giving her blank calls, though some of my friends did it from my phone ) I used to feel they have to grow-up. I too sometimes have gone through the same, but realized later and again blah blah blah…….

No Conclusions, but would say friends are one good thing you can make in life, whatever nonsense you may do, real friends are really the ones who support you through bad and worst, it may not be financially or physically, one phone call from someone, when you are feeling sad would really cheer us up.

When I did my first blog ( where in I referred to as a third person), people called me up and asked if everythin in there was true, I felt good and bad, good that my friends were there by my side as soon as I put my thoughts in writing, bad that they could understand what I really meant. On the whole that was a good experience.

Writing my thoughts as a blog, I never review after a sentence, so friends, whatever I write in here is a flow of my overflowing thoughts, bear with me until I b’cme a professional in writing.

Kudos to all my friends who have been with me thru thick and thin.

Incomplete

Out on the roads, like good ol' times....

Cant find a biryani, its all burgers in here.

My favorite past time from years, being out at nights - back home.

Shunning the traffic from the day and listening to the sound of silence, going through the dark lanes with one foggy light at the end of the street. Feeling the warmth of the air filled with the combustions whole day, thoughts whirring through my mind, happiness in my soul even not seen on my face, heart pounding to the silence of my mind.

When do i get back?? - to life!!!

Today

People everyday think of tomorrow being a wonderful day, I say - Believe in today where you have whatever you have, tomorrow may never be, hoping for tomorrow to be good is leaving today's best behind you.

Yes

Yes

Every night lot of thoughts go thru my mind, I get some wonderful thoughts as to start a 5-start hotel.... :D.... and the daily routine i think of - like "" I should wake up early tomorrow and start working out"", not funny rite, yeah my sense of humor's been dead when that girl over there ditched me, she got a guy, and my sense of humor, may her soul rest in peace.