Happyness

Who am I to write about it, and is anyone gonna learn it reading MY blog, well, if you do I will be more happier. So am I happy now... Yes, in the moment! (If not am so lazy to write something, FYI… I am writing a lot these days, nothing interesting, but pages and pages of notes to understand what I am doing, did you understand that, NO?... I got a job….

Yippeee, must have come out of someone’s mouth… at least One person; yeah some people were really happy that I got a job, and I am not one of those some.

So, as lazy as I am, the job sucks, yeah.. you ask me why and I say what I am really doing and then you say sigh, saving all that, I don’t like it, maybe I am not going to like a 9 to 5 job ever…. So what do u like dude, someone asks me… and I say…. I DON’T KNOW ….

Well I am old enough to vote, get married, and some people (guys) of my age already have kids (good for them)…. And Me … I still don’t know what I want, when I say this to this good friend of mine, he gives me a lecture on how people (no one) likes their lives or you should not wait for what you like and go with the flow, earn some, save some kinda s**t… well, I don’t blame him for that, must be good thoughts, good to listen and that’s it for me, he feels happy that I listened and I feel happy that he is happy.

Oh, I started about happiness rt… comin back to that… I am was kinda happy, was in the morning, am now. It started to be a good day, I dreamt about my girlfriend bein with me(donno how good that is J… should be!!!)… Was talking to a friend and it was sunny in the morning today after a long long time, so that was a good morning. And then, I was talking back home; I do not like traffic, people shouting and someone kinda not listening to me on the phone, so all the 3 things happened and I was feeling really bad… I really do not like those 3 things.. so, just went to work and was doin the s**t stuff I am not really interested in again… talked to my manager and he liked my work ( believe me, I am not lying )…… had a great lunch, came back, was feelin really sleepy and had an boring meeting, which left me dull, ran out of the office by the evening, even took stairs not to wait for the lift. Got on the metro and slept, so why am I writin all this, whatever….

Hmmm… comin back to happiness, what is it… is it about the moment, is it about livin the moment, or is the moment you feel in high spirits, feeling like doing anything you want and can be doin whatever you want. Am I creative or not the question to me, I want to do what I love, I don’t know what I love, other than my friends, parents and u know who. So, was feelin relieved in the evening, sat down to watch “ How I met Your Mother”, felt happy, well dude, tell me what happiness is in here, you ask me, I say enjoying that moment which is making me write not what I wanted to, but made me forget for a while all the tensions and made me write out Me. So, as of always if someone understands or not, jus venting out my thoughts, and one thing which would may be make happy is, Direction, not writing, I know I suck at it, and you people whoever ‘ever’ are gonna read this is just to make me happy. Eventually you would, for sure. Started to write somethin and ended up into something else, so would follow up on this one for sure when I land in the same spirits.

P.S: Happyness instead of Happiness is my Likingss for The Pursuit of Happyness

Reading : Latest ‘Express’ newsletter

Listenin to : How I met your mother Soundtrack(Jingle, ( is it what they call it which comes in the start :) ) )

One Thought

I was relieved of some stress today and a flow of thoughts went in my mind.

Never waste your time, if you think you are ready for something, test yourself and hit it. If you have some work in hand never leave it and go for searching something better until unless you think you are really good at the next thing and it is what you want. Be respectful of any small job you do and do take life seriously once you do have a job. Always believe in yourself how low, lost or loser-like you may feel. Always be happy for what you have, you may not have it tomorrow or never again.

Kinda philosophical but true, maybe.

LINK Well this has nothing to do with the thoughts, but found it good.

Listening to : My room-mates blah!

Reading Today : Story by Robert Mckee

Tryin to be back

Haaallllooooooooo

Well, whoever have read my blog until now, thanks to them, you are always an inspiration to make me write

It’s been a while since I wrote anything.

I knew I was going to do it sometime this month. I have my reasons. Let me list some of them

One, no mood to write, my life been soo pale as the face of Johnny depp in Edward Scissorhands. So, I was jus sittin home all the time, doing nothing but searching for jobs.

Second, hundreds of other reasons going through my mind. What am I going to become, in life, is the biggest question, its not like am worried and all that, but I believe at least now I should choose a route, well, I believe lot of people go through this phase and compromise on leading a un-risky life, like getting a job in a bank or a software company.

I don’t know how many people think in that way these days, but, I do not want to be one of them, making it ‘+’vely correct, I would say, I want to risk and get more success than staying down and compromise with life.

But again the question is, what do I wanna be, I donnnoooo….. making questions is the easiest thing in life, how about being a professor or a lecturer, my job just would be making questions and I can bluff that I know everything better than students.

So, here I am in front of my love, my apple, whose battery is dying early these days, need to buy a new life for her, well, my life itself is in a way which needs more power than a battery, writing sh*t again, am I

Well, doesn’t matter, no one is going to publish this or anything rt… chalega ( meaning doesn’t matter in hindi )….

Listenin to : ' Raindrops keep fallin on my head ' by Burt Bacharach/BJ Thomas ( it never gets old)

Whatever

I cant close my mouth!!!!

When something is wrong, i just cant take it, it may be a problem, a situation, someone's behavior.

Well, if you are friends with someone, you do think of whatever happens to them should be good. You try to change them if they are into something bad, may be habits or affairs.

I tried changing a few people the way they behave, well, they started to get annoyed, and some stopped talking to me too! may be i am at fault sometimes. I wonder if the problem is with them or me. I try to do some good, explain people what the situation is, but, accepting the truth is the hard part, for anyone, so the conversation end up in a conflict, people don't like me for that. Well at least, something good is going to happen to them, I hope, even if they do not care. People take quite some time to realize what went wrong, they are no machines, I say.

Well, if I am the one to realize, I can say I was wrong and get on with things, but the question is do everyone have the courage ( well, that would be a big word, but I couldn't find anything else) to get back to things the way they were. An apology sometimes does work ( oh i like apologies heheheh, the bloody side yeah! ), that too if it is a girl, they work out in a big way.

I am not much of a leader, no body listens to me much, that is why i Blog :), I should start reading those Leadership books, maybe that would help to make people listen to me. The last one i started gave me a good night's sleep, in the morning I thought, may be that sleep is supposed to change everything, but that didn't change anything too... heheheh.... blah blah blah right!!!!!!! Need to write something more meaningful and purposeful at least the next time I write, this is what i think of, when i stop to write every time.

Listening to : Silence around me!

Reading Today : The Inheritance of Loss by Kiran Desai.

Some more thoughts!

Satisfaction

Dad always says : never keep something Pending

I am gonna say that to my kids too, keeping something in pending, any work, anything it may be will lead to tensions in last minute.

Need to thank dad for whatever he has done to me, without him I am not at all what I am today. Well, nothin achieved great yet, but yes, i am happy the way i am, as in, so many people are not at all happy with their lives, well me too - just a bit, but on the other hand I am pretty much happy of my life, which I can say is a better success.

Peace

Listenin to: My 28 day-old niece

Blah Blah Again

Be a Smart Worker. someone told me once.

There is a difference between a hard and smart worker, they told me. You work hard, you are a hard worker, you make someone else do your work, you are a smart worker.

I believe I am a hard worker, I like doing my work, I cant leave my work in someone else's hands, how much I may believe in the other person,it doesnt work with me that way, leaving it to someone else and over look if it is getting done or not.

It is the time of smart workers i should say,looking at what is happening now. There is a team, maybe in a company or politics or anything else, part of them work and everyone gets the appreciation ( and money and everything else ), you cannot blame anyone, both hard and smart, hard thinks of doing the work and smart thinks of getting the work done.

Someone else once told me, " if you have been robbed, you have nothing to do with it, but if you have been cheated, you are the one at fault". You let someone cheat you, takeover you, you believed in someone who you shouldnt have, it is you who are responsible, not the one who cheated.

Well, the world works its way, good people come and go, its the bad you always need to deal with.

Listening to : The sound of the Mid-East air & 2-day old Leaves on a dull-summer afternoon

Random Thoughts - 2

I Love my Life

I Love my Life

Whoever out there who doesnt love their life, believe me, start loving it and you will feel really better!!! I knowwwwwww , complains, complains complains and more complains,

" I dont get a bus, my boss hates me, why do these people bother more about me, y cant i quit on mondays, i like to sleep 5 more minutes,i dont like to work at this place, Noooo - I dont wanna go to the class today, I think she is going to break up with me, whateverrrrrrrrr "

Whatever it may be ppl, believe me, start loving your life and you would really see the difference, feel good for what you have, there are lottttttttttttttttttttttttttttta ppl out there who dont have anything at all what you have, not even the least of what you have, it may be friends, love, money, home, whatever it may be, you are reading this because you have something better than many ppl out there.


Listening to : My Laundry machine sounding like a Hulk